Monday, February 18, 2013

Thankful

I haven't felt able to write much since Christmas time.  There are so many things that I am thankful for, and yet there is so much that still causes me to feel so unsettled. 

I had a phone call last weekend that caused me to look again at Sara's journal.  I just happened to open it on February 11th, to be reminded that February 11, 2011 was the date she started that journal.  Reading that entry, and the entries that followed, I felt like I heard Sara's heart again.  She constantly prayed that God will heal her if it was His will.  She wanted to share her story and tell others all the amazing things that God was doing in her life.  At the same time, her journals are also full of her acceptance of whatever it was God had for her.  Over and over are statements of her faith, that she knew He loved her, and she trusted Him.  Her faith is an example to me.  I realized again my selfishness. 

This past weekend I was blessed to spend a few days in Arizona with Heidi and with Kari.  We had a girls weekend, and we savored every second of it.  It was the two-year anniversary of Sara's graduation celebration with the whole family in Reno.  The president of Corban University came to personally give Sara her diploma in February of 2011.  Like so many other things in that journey, it was bittersweet.  It was such a blessing to Sara, and yet even though we didn't let ourselves think it, we knew it was happening because Sara's time on earth was going to be cut short. 

Sara was still a part of our girls weekend.  She will always be a part of everything, because she will always be a part of us.  I will always love to share her story and to share her faith.   Thank you Lord.

278. Time with my girls
279.  The closeness of family
280.  Fun food
281.  Sales
282.  Antique stores
283.  Baby clothes
284.  Unique books
285.  Journaling
286.  God's perfect timing
287.  Every perfect gift from above